Every Single Moment is Precious with you...

I wonder what you look like now

I wonder if you still sing like you always did

Just like the sound of a nightingale

Are you playing the tambourine right now?

Singing, leaping and dancing at the throne of our Father?

Your beautiful smile must be carved on your face

Your joy and enthusiasm always cheers me up

Whenever I look at you

You must be cheering up angels and delighting our Father's heart now

You carry the symbol of unconditional love

Every deed done with thoughtfulness

Every seed sown in kindness

Putting others first before yourself

That was the motto you beared while you lived on this earth

But now.....

No more tears

No more pain

no more sorrow

no more suffering

I still cry when I think about you

No one can deny how much we miss having you around

How i wish you were here to share precious moments with me

watch me walk down the aisle

Watch me carry my first child

but the anticipation starts to build

When we meet again in heaven

Will you remember me?

Will you know my name?

will you hug me and spin me around like before?

singing Alleutta, Glory Alleutta!

Exclaiming ' All is well! All is Well!

as you always do

I can't wait for the day when we meet again

We can have tea for two

Scones, jam and butter

Or we can bake strawberry cakes

and peanut cookies together

just like ol' times

Or maybe we could sit down side by side on the piano

You can start playing ' Edelweiss' with your right hand

And i'll play the chords for you with my left hand

Thank you for the impact that you made on me

Thank you for showing love and following Jesus' footsteps

Thank you for spending precious moments with us while you lived

Thank you for every bit

Still loving you from earth

Sending my hugs and kisses

Till I see you again

Love you dearly, My lovely Aunt Lydia!

Living in our hearts eternally...

Tears filled my eyes again
As i drove through the cool, rainy night...
Turned off the radio
Opted for some peace and quiet
Once again your sweet face came to me
Haunting my mind

I thought about your kindness
I thought about your grace
Your love that knows no boundaries
A love I've never encountered anywhere else
So close to my Lord
Just like my Jesus
Then it hit me
You remind me so much of Jesus

Thought about the countless times you gave yourself
Did all the household chores
Woke up early just to bake and cook for us
Carried the heavy luggage all the way Down Under
Just to bring your nieces a wonderful read or two
The tunes of Edelweiss in the back of my mind
I can still hear it
Ever so clearly
Felt just like yesterday
You remind me of my Jesus

Wonder if you could see us
Wonder if you'd recognize us
Wonder if you'd run to embrace us
when we meet in heaven?
Are you walking streets of gold?
Are you having the time of your life?
Without pain and distress...
Always held in our Lord's bosom

Then my soul is at peace
When i think about Jesus holding you
Embracing you, covering you
I'm thankful
You are in good hands

Once again, thank you
For you remind me so much of Jesus
When you walked the earthly ground
till you went up to heaven
You still remind me of my Jesus
Now you are with Him
Your soul is complete
Be at rest, Darling Aunt Lydia

See you at your mansion!
Don't forget to bake us a cake or two!
just like you always do...
=)

Still Miss you... So much..

People always say
Time will Heal
Now i'm starting to wonder
Whether it will ever do

It has been 4 months
I'm still grieving
I'm still missing
I'm still hurting

How are you doing up there?
I hope you're having the time of your life
But we do miss you greatly
Down here below

Do you still remember me?
Will you know who I am
If i bump into you
The next time i see you?

I just want to say
You still dwell here
in each of our hearts
Altho we don't mention it as often
I know we think of you every second
every minute of the day

The carve of love that you've marked
on each of our hearts
Will never fade
The love you've shown
will always linger

Love you, Yoke Ee
So very much!
I hope you can hear me
when i say ' I love you'
Cos i really do!

A Dance with Our Daddy .....

The heavenly music is getting louder
Can you hear the sound?
Its melodious lines seem to captivate you
You seem drawn to it
But i called out and said
'Don't go yet, stay around here a bit more
I know it's not much but i sure would like it
If you'd stay for a while or so'

But the music continues to beckon
Your feet starts tapping into the rhythm
You said,' I'm starting to feel the music.
'Can you feel it too?'
With a cheeky smile on your face
You twirled and moved promptly to the beat
Moving further and further away

I called out ,' Don't go too far , I'll miss you'
You lingered for a while
But music started to fill the air
I tried to follow but it was too tough
You were dancing further and further away
I tried to see where you were moving towards
But everything was a blur

Fear started to grip my heart
'Where is she going? What if i never see her again?'
I have to stop her
Then i tried
I struggled to keep up to the beat so i can keep up with her
So i can keep her with me

I looked at her again
She was laughing , with a beautiful smile on her face
Enjoying each melody and harmony...
I felt bad... how can i stop her
She looked so happy now.. and contented

Then I saw Him
My Daddy... Her Daddy
Our Daddy....
He came and swiftly swept her off her feet
I heard her laughter ringing just like the sound of bells chiming
His strong arms started to carry her
Led her into a beautiful choreography

I was stunned
She no longer looked sad like before
Downcast and sorrowful
How could this be?
She is now dancing with our Daddy
Her head slowly tilted and she leaned on His chest
Peace was written all over her face
I could feel her heart, warm and contented
She's in better hands now ...

They danced and danced
Further and further away from my sight
I almost cried out to her
but she looked back at me once in a while
Smiling, almost as if to reassure me
That she's safe and joyful
As if to tell me not to worry

I thought to myself
This was a dance that i could not follow
Tears filled my eyes again
This time it wasn't tears of fear
It was tears of joy
To see her glowing and her beauty showing
ever so majestically.... like never before

Daddy then looked at me
a whisper came to me saying,
'She's with me now.. No pain,
no sorrow, no sickness can ever
touch her again......'
I cried again....
Peace rushed into my heart
I knew I had to let her go

I sat there and i watched
as She and Daddy danced and danced
till they were almost out of sight
Deep inside i knew
She is where she wants to be

She will have to wait
Till it's my turn to dance with Daddy
Then...i shall see her once again
Beaming and shining with glory
I shall wait for the beautiful day
When I can see her again
I will give her the biggest, tightest bear hug
And there, we can dance together
Throughout eternity....

Visits from Australia

In Alor Star with her sis, (Sally),bro-in-law(Lee),their son (Caleb) and hubby (Graham)

Can't remember exactly when was this. When she came back from Australia to visit us, esp during CNYs she'd always be the earliest to wake up. Either mopping the floor or making breakfast, baking her cakes and peanut cookies, making her tuna and vege puffs and cooking her pumpkin soup. =) While we were still in bed snoring away, she'd come in and say , ' Rise and Shine! Time to make some pancakes!!!' =) And then we would wake up groggily... but in the end we would have a fun time making pancakes for breakfast together. She was a wonderful cook!

Brothers, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope. We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him.
1 Thessalonians 4:13-14

Dressed in white

In the Catholic church in KB, we were dressed in white for some special occasion
which I cannot remember.....I had to recite something at the altar...
Look at her beaming so proudly in this picture ;)

Kota Bharu daysss..

CNY 1992

Aunt Lydia used to stay with us in our house in Kota Bharu until she left in 1994 to go to Shah Alam to work. Haha look at Erwin (my bro) looking so cheeky and why was my dad looking so bored during CNY??? She used to fetch me around in her Honda Cap red scooter =) I can still remember the sound of the revving engine and she looking so cool with her helmet.
Check out the piano behind us ;) while we were growing up and learning piano, she was always entertaining us with some of her own favorites like Edelweiss (played with the left hand on C chord at all times =)) and the Happy Birthday Song! She'll always say, ' Hmmph! I also know how to play! ' and start playing her tunes =)

The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil. Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death.
Isaiah 57:1-2